il pleure (at the turn of the century)
Mar. 25th, 2015 12:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yamamanamaLet me tell you, the next few days are a hell of a lot worse. Especially when it's 2 AM and you can't sleep and there's no one around to talk to. Archer marathons help, but only temporarily. It's like the movie Samotari. When you love someone, you give them a piece of your soul. I feel like I'm missing a huge part of me that I'll never get back and that's why it hurts.
Jack told me that horrid kenoma feelings last a while. This is as true in 2015 as it was in 2005.
I didn't mean for the last entry to be so long, it just happened that way. It's the first time I've ever been open about my feelings towards Emma, except for one PM I sent and a conversation with Zofia. Zofia noticed after two conversations. Well spotted.
I want to tell Emma that there is definitely romantic tension and that if she ever feels awkward or uncomfortable around me and if she wants me to give her some personal space and she can paint the mural by herself, that's fine with me. I'm not saying I don't want to be friends with her because I really do.
Jean said my fears of romantic tension are unfounded. I'm not entirely confident about that, but, hey, it will be at least another 45 days before I see her again. A lot of things can change in 45 days.
I told Jean to sum up what happened to Zofia, since it was her idea, and to ask her if she has any advice for where to go from here which involves:
1. letting Gabriella know I'm interested in her romantically.
2. not making her feel like she's my second choice. Nobody ever wants to feel that way.
3. not making her feel like I'm just trying to fill up this kenoma somehow.
I'm sure Kaz heard what I said to Jean but if she has an opinion of it, she kept her mouth shut.
Someone brought their parrot to board, so he had a two-bird conference with Crackers. We gave him a toilet paper tube, he dropped it a few times and then he tossed it. Kaz said he was trying to play fetch with her. Kaz and Crackers did interpretive dance.
Jacob thought Arnold sounded wasted in the commentary for Conan. "look at that attack with Thulsa Doom in front with his helmet." He also says "hipmotized."
I'm pretty sure that listening to A Rose Made Of Galaxies and Winks and Kisses and Automatic For The People is not the way to feel better. I told Asakiyume I was going to listen to entirely ukulele music for the next week but after watching a few Raocow videos in a vain attempt to restore emotional equilibrium, I don't think I was in the mood for it.
I'm not sure what Song For Nelson is, perhaps a paean to the sunrise.
burning question: when you listen to music, do you prefer to listen to music that reflects your current emotional state? I've been listening to Motion Picture Soundtrack a lot, even though I said I'd listen to ukulele stuff because ukuleles should make everyone happy.
Jack told me that horrid kenoma feelings last a while. This is as true in 2015 as it was in 2005.
I didn't mean for the last entry to be so long, it just happened that way. It's the first time I've ever been open about my feelings towards Emma, except for one PM I sent and a conversation with Zofia. Zofia noticed after two conversations. Well spotted.
I want to tell Emma that there is definitely romantic tension and that if she ever feels awkward or uncomfortable around me and if she wants me to give her some personal space and she can paint the mural by herself, that's fine with me. I'm not saying I don't want to be friends with her because I really do.
Jean said my fears of romantic tension are unfounded. I'm not entirely confident about that, but, hey, it will be at least another 45 days before I see her again. A lot of things can change in 45 days.
I told Jean to sum up what happened to Zofia, since it was her idea, and to ask her if she has any advice for where to go from here which involves:
1. letting Gabriella know I'm interested in her romantically.
2. not making her feel like she's my second choice. Nobody ever wants to feel that way.
3. not making her feel like I'm just trying to fill up this kenoma somehow.
I'm sure Kaz heard what I said to Jean but if she has an opinion of it, she kept her mouth shut.
Someone brought their parrot to board, so he had a two-bird conference with Crackers. We gave him a toilet paper tube, he dropped it a few times and then he tossed it. Kaz said he was trying to play fetch with her. Kaz and Crackers did interpretive dance.
Jacob thought Arnold sounded wasted in the commentary for Conan. "look at that attack with Thulsa Doom in front with his helmet." He also says "hipmotized."
I'm pretty sure that listening to A Rose Made Of Galaxies and Winks and Kisses and Automatic For The People is not the way to feel better. I told Asakiyume I was going to listen to entirely ukulele music for the next week but after watching a few Raocow videos in a vain attempt to restore emotional equilibrium, I don't think I was in the mood for it.
I'm not sure what Song For Nelson is, perhaps a paean to the sunrise.
burning question: when you listen to music, do you prefer to listen to music that reflects your current emotional state? I've been listening to Motion Picture Soundtrack a lot, even though I said I'd listen to ukulele stuff because ukuleles should make everyone happy.
